e-friendship.

"I met them over the internet." 

That phase doesn't settled well with some people. But you honest can not define friendship until you experiences first hand, how an internet friendships can change you. 

You've always been told not to talk to strangers, and the internet was no different. And Im not blind to the fact there are tons of freaky people out there. You hear those stories about the beloved son or daughter getting murder because they 'met' someone over the internet. Thats where we lose some facts. Fact number one, those kids were looking for something more then a friendship. And number two, they gave out too much information before they even really knew who those people were.

I have connected with so many wonderful funny people over the internet. And when I said internet, I mean YouTube. Not Myspace or Craig's List. I honestly join YouTube for creative and freedom reason. I never knew I would be so close to so many people. I never expected to be. I never planed it. Not only have they gave me laugher and happiness, but I've learned so much. Stuff school could never teach me. How other people see me,  how others live, where Nova Socita is, time zones and all the weird slangs people have taught me. I learn friendship can't be define by a hug or a personal laugh. I learn there are going to people who don't understand your strange loves and hobbies. But for every person that doesn't understand you, there are five more that do.

Not only do I want to keep these friendships. I want to meet everyone of those friends before I die. Because I know I won't be the same, I'll have this cliché emptiness within me. So, I have compiled a list of those people.

Now my memory does not serve me well, and I can not remember who was my first close YouTube friend. But I do remember a very friendly British girl named  Lucy. Lucy's channels got closed but we became friends during the summer. I don't know what happen to her, but I do miss her.

Even tho we've recently became friends, hands down Andrew, Matthew and Fiona are on the list. I can't even put into words how funny this people are! Matthew has the most addicting laugh and really knows how to piss people off and charm ladies. Andrew is a sensitive cookie, but knows how made me laugh to the point I can't breathe. And Fiona, is basically me in Irish form but like ten times funnier.

This list wouldn't be complete without, The Ladies. Grace and I became friends four months I believe. It started out with me saying, "I smell the start of a new YouTube friendship." And boy, I was so right! Grace is like everything compacted into one small witty girl. Theres no way you couldn't have something command with her. Closely following behind Grace is her close friends and now mine, Kayley and Kendra. Kayley is my secret neopet loving, day dreaming dork, who makes me feel like friendship and age has no limits. She's the baby of all of us, but it never shows. And Kendra, can you say supergirl? She can basically do anything and come up with anything creative. But these girls are going to be crossed off my list soon.. because we're all planing to meeting up in Forks this summer. Epicsauce much?

Even tho I can't remember my first YouTube friend, I know remember my first Irish YouTube friend. Laura, poppygirlx on YouTube. She got me into iminlikewithyou and skype. Everytime we're on skype and iminlikewithyou we tend to scream.. a lot. I don't know why, we end up screaming and scaring people like Becky and Lisa. Laura and I have special 'Carly and Laura skype time' which is hard to do since our time zones are the complete opposite. When I get home from school, shes going to bed. And when Im going to bed shes getting up to go to school. Same goes with Andrew, Matthew and Fiona. We're not only miles apart, we're on the opposite sides of the world.

Its weird being friends with someone you've never really seen in person. But that doesn't mean I don't know them. People say that all the time, "You don't even know them." Really.. I don't? Because Im pretty sure they know more about me, then people I know in person do.

Holy Snap.

So in Portland one day the weather was like,

"Hey, we need to kick it up a nock! I got an idea, I'll dump two and half inches of PURE HELL ON PORTLAND!"

Not really, but in my mind the weather was totally thinking that.

On Sunday the 13th, we got a butt load of snow. And for me, snow is fun for about a day. All good. Well the next day, Monday, school was cancelled. YIPEE! I relax on Monday and take it easy.

Well, then Tuesday comes around, no school.

Wenesday? No school (plus my birthday!)

Thurday? No school.

I think Im going slightly crazy.

So right now, its looking like I get an extra week of winter break.

Pretty tight mannn.

I lied.

Im a Debbie Downer to the max. The Birthday blog I posted was me being really mad and super emo in a weird way. So I apologize for that, because I just re-read it and I was like "Wow.. you're weird." So, SORRY SORRY SORRY! People have it way worst than me and I had no room to talk!

Any who, my birthday is not going to suck.. hopefully. My parents decided to combine my birthday and Christmas present to form a.. BIRTHMAS PRESENT! And my Birthmas present is this lovely Canon camera:

Name? Callie-Yak

Megapixels? 10.1 foo.

What kind of Canon? EOS Rebel XS

Excited? I've been peeing my pants since my dad ordered it

Things are good. The school days are going super fast and I get out for Christmas on the 19th for two weeks!

Yipee!

Gotta love the witty.

I was browsing through one of my favorite old websites I rediscover, FredFlare.com, and I found thee most amazing mug. The design is amazing and cleaver in every way. Kudos to the designer.

    

 

birthday crap.

On the 17th of THIS lovely December, I will be 17. And.. Im not so tickled me pink about this. Every year I ask for something for my birthday and every year I get random shit from my parent I end up giving back. I feel terrible about this. And it makes my feel like a bad daughter. So I decided this year (and maybe every year) to ask for nothing. Not a card or a cake. My sister is forcing me to go to dinner. But knowing my parent, their going fuck it up some how. Their really good at not listening to me.

I see the girls on Super Sweet Sixteen ask for everything under the sun. A brand new car, pricey dresses, thousand dollar parties, helicopter rides and stupid material things. And on my 16th birthday, I didn't get one thing I want. I sound like a complete brat, but my parents never listen. My mom got me a video camera, returned it because it didn't work with my computer. A ugly pillow for my bed from Fred Meyer's. And other stuff I can't even remember. My birthday's suck. End of story.

Carly through the looking glass.

So last night I had a crazy dream. It was like a frickin' acid trip, but the strange thing was.. everything made sense and was in like a metaphor, probably not but it seem like it. Now instead of me rambling on about how crazy it was, I'll tell you the dream from my point of view. 

The dream started out a little fuzzy, but my dream was form around Alice in Wonderland. So there I was, with the rabbit and a boy named Peter (Peter Pan perhaps?) falling down the rabbit's hole. The rabbit pulls a cord and the bottom opens up, 

like a trap door. The door was dark green and was marked with a 'K' and following trap doors with other letters such as 'R' and 'S'. We floated down pass the trap doors into the start of a white shiny tunnel slide. I was the first to drop in the slide. The slide had turns and other paths and I got separated from the rabbit and Peter. The slide was beautiful, like stained glass sugar candy. Then I started to slow down on the slide and see the opening 

"Peter?" I called out in a British way for some reason. I do have a friend Peter who I do say his name in a British way, so that could be it.. but anyways..

I see people speeding by the opening of the slide. I slowly move forward and see a group of people roller skating. Normal right? No! I see my friend Emily standing there staring at me then back at another person. I look over, and I see me. With my hair down in a ugly grey sweater, with a discussed look on my face. I point at myself in awe "Your.. your me!" I struggled out of the slide and walked over to 'myself'. The other me turns around and faces a kid at my school I really don't think highly of. He takes Carly number two by the chin and kisses the other me! WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON!? My eyes widen and I find my way out of roller rink.

I find myself, the real me not the other crazy Carly kissing rude boys, wondering around in an amusement park. Rides based off the book, Alice in Wonderland, but the people I know and my friends we're them self. Everyone was the opposite of their personalities. And the people I knew and loved, didn't even know who I was. I was in a parallel universe of awesome proportion. A sweet girl I babysit who's practically my little sister, was this tough chick with a serious attitude. 

"Emily!" I said smiling as I walked up to her

"I'm pregnant.." she growled at me

I stepped back, confused and discussed. She's in the fourth grade, I've know her since she was born! How could this be? I shook my head and wonder around trying to find some 'normal' people.

"Woah, woah, woah.. Carly?!" said a boy who caught me by my shoulders as I walked by a ride. A senior from my school, who I don't know by name since I met him at the blood drive and never asked his name.

"You know me?" I asked wondering if he knew me or the other me. 

He was working at this crazy park and he seemed normal. I felt like I wasn't going crazy and a huge weight was lifted. He explained to me that was going on. Everyone had another person who looked like them, but were nothing like them. Living in another world, and I happen to land in their favorite hang out. 

"How do I get back home?" I asked scared the answer wouldn't get me back home. He chuckled and pointed at the brightly colored bumper cars. I turned and watched the children crash into each other with laugher. 

"Thats the only way home.." he said as I turn back around to face him.

"Slam into wall in one of those cars, and your home free.."

I never got to used the bumper cars to get home. Because the craziest of my dream scared me and woke me up. I love my dreams, and this one has to be one with the craziest plot lines.

Hawaii took my best friend.

Miss. Kate Alexis, my best friend of two years is in Hawaii for a week. Separated by one huge ocean. I miss her. I shall miss her some more. Then, miss her again. She's 1/3 of the original D. Crew (Dizznay Crew, youtube it!) We go threw the same things all the time. She's basically going to be famous with me. Katie and I always talk about buying a loft in downtown Portland. Fill it with Urban Outfitters everything and be awesome. We're helping each other to get to where we want to be when were older. And it will happen soon. I love you superkc03!